Thursday, 23 November 2017

The animals. . .

"Don't feed the animals". . . 
A song endorsement by Kerry Taula. . . 

Big teeth in your face
Claws like a razor blade
Never again will I be friends with a big bad wolf like you
Poison that will eat you alive
Tongue like a dragon fire
Never again will I be friends with a creepy little snake like you

You know when you get that feeling like you don't know how you're supposed to feel anymore?
It's hard to explain and you wonder to yourself, is it even worth explaining?
How many big bad wolves have you known in your life?  Tongues of dragon fire and creepy little snakes?  A menagerie of equally menacing and untrustworthy animals that you never realised until it's too late - were quietly circling you.  Why do people seek you out and want you to be all of these different things to them?  Why do people continue to hide things from you and then end up revealing it all anyway?  I must have that kind of face.  I must have something that's plastered on my forehead, "tell me everything. I want to know".  Well actually, I don't.  I never asked. 

I didn't learn from the first time but oh I learned the second time
Never again will we ever be friends
They told me "don't feed the animals"

How many times do you actually need to learn something?
If you didn't pick it up the first time, then there's some things that you need to pay close attention to.
Have a think about all the things that you've learned in your life that took a second time to get right.  Is there some kind of pattern there?  Is what you are learning and being asked to do - at odds with what you believe within your heart of hearts?  How much longer will you tolerate people who continually lie to you and seem to think you don't know what's actually going on?  That the reason you say nothing is that there is nothing worth saying, it's not you doing all the damage and being silent doesn't equate to complacency.  It just means you're no longer going to let become a feature of your life.  If you are sick of waiting for people to see the penny drop, because even if they stood in the middle of a penny rainstorm and refused to acknowledge the reality of their situation - it is no longer your responsibility, it is no longer anything that concerns you.  And you no longer feel concerned.


Big teeth in your face
Claws like a razor blade
Never again will I be friends with a big bad wolf like you
Poison that will eat you alive
Tongue like a dragon fire
Never again will I be friends with a creepy little snake like you

Big flashing teeth in your face - toothy smiles that hide lies that you don't want to wear anymore.
They will put their claws into anything and anyone you are trying to pull yourself away from.  As much as people say they want to be what they think they need to for you - they don't quite understand what that involves.  If you are sick of broken promises, of people saying things that they break only within days, then you start to question whether it is worth being around them anymore.  If they compromise themselves because they allow it to happen, and keep running to you to fix them, that's not your job.  The poison of their toxicity that they continue to collect from someone else who lives a fake life, need not fall within your realm of responsibility.  The fact that you have the patience of a saint says a lot about you being able to protect them from themselves, even if they don't appreciate it or truly understand how much you really love them.  They don't deserve you, bottom line.

I didn't learn from the first time but oh I learned the second time
Never again will we ever be friends
They told me "don't feed the animals"

You shouldn't feel obliged to feed the animals anymore.
They have their own ways of finding sources of nutrition so that they don't become malnourished.  When you have stated things and made it clear what you want for yourself, and they continue to disrespect it, then it's time for you to focus on yourself, focus on what your destiny is and move past the first world problems that they leave at your doorstep.  You no longer need to put yourself in harm's way, because that's all they know how to be - they're like a bull in a china shop - no amount of good intentions or carefully stepping or manoeuvring is going to prevent them from causing irreparable damage.  They're an animal after all remember.  Don't feed them anymore.  They can feed themselves and don't need you to get sucked into feeding them with their regurgitated food.

Almost had me down 
But I know now 
Ain't no friend to me, the enemy
Tried to make me bleed
On my knees
But I'm still alive
You better run and hide
Almost had me by the skin of your teeth
You tried to bite it but you couldn't catch me
Thought I'd run and hide but I'm still alive
Just go before I make my attack
Just go on and never look back
Don't feed

I hope that after all is said and done, you start to understand that you must come out of this.
There is no guilt that prevents you from living your best life, and if you do feel guilty, remember that the guilt is not yours - you didn't cause any of the drama that is continually laid at your feet.  You're well equipped to deal with your own stuff yet they continually bring their dilemmas for you to solve.  The other party may not even be aware that you know every.single.detail of what has been going on and is oblivious to how much you actually do know.  Don't let the animals get you by the skin of their teeth.  There is no longer any need to run and hide either.  In order to stand confidently on your own and do what you need to do, surround yourself with real friends who have your best intentions at heart, who treat you with the real authentic genuine respect that only true friends give to one another.  They can no longer touch you with their toxicity, especially if they can't see it.  They can no longer demand your time from you.  You no longer need to accept apologies and promises and regrets - they are not yours to bear.  If you had ten dollars for every excuse that you have heard, every fake tear that you have dried, every indignant cry that came out of their mouths, all you need to do is be silent and above all else, don't feed the animals. . .