Sunday, 15 October 2017

Nothing to no one. . .

So close, while I fall apart. . . 

I am aiding, I go in, no fading
'Til your eyes close before you love
They say it's tragic, turnings come to plastic
Closest thing to magic, watching you become
My light, my dark, my everything

There is only so much you can do before you can reach breaking point.
You will have people surround you and tell you how much you mean to them and how much their life is so much better with you in it.  Yet they continue to make the same mistakes that take them down pathways that they constantly tell you that they don't want to go on.  So why do they lie about it?  Have they appointed you as some kind of monitor to keep them on the straight and narrow because they can't trust themselves to do it?  Stuff that.  If you're an adult and they're an adult - then they should be able to sort that out for themselves.  It should be the times where they have deliberately not been able to do a damn thing because life has dealt them lemons that you can help them make the lemonade, not, they've deliberately gone around shaking the damn lemon trees and then expect you to pick up some off the ground for them to make lemonade.  Why do people persist in looking for trouble in this way?  If life deals you the same situations and scenarios - make better decisions dumbo - obviously you're making the wrong choices every. single. time.

Yeah, I bleed just like everyone
But I feed off a different one
I'm built all of broken bone
I am nothing to no one
Will your ghost stay here in the dark?
So close, while I fall apart
When you go, I will keep your heart
I am nothing to no one but you

If you are a strong person, it's because you've had to be.
It's sooooo easy to fall apart and let other people pick up your mess.  I totally understand this is why rich people would want to employ cleaners, maids, domestic staff to take care of menial tasks that they feel that they can't or won't be bothered to take care of for themselves.  This suggests that rich people have more important things to do - like helping others and making the world a better place.  Not necessarily.  Some might be more interested in making more money to keep them in the lifestyle that they have become accustomed or ruining other people's lives so that they can go without, in order to build their empires.  Others might have found the balance between making money and giving it away so that their wealth can contribute to other people's wealth in some way.  This is how we can sustain a healthy environment that celebrates equity and social justice.



Lately, deeper in your dowry
Eerie (irie) like your starry song that came to mind
I feel the glass door quicker and the white snow
Back into the shadows, back into another life

So what will do you do?  Go back into the shadows and back into another life?
What kind of life is that necessarily?
One without drama and someone forcing their lemons on you.
Even if you are someone that is really good at making lemonade, does that mean you should actually make it?  What exchanges have been made in the past to get us to this point?  Crafting moments of trust and shared experiences may lead you to think that there are alliances that can never be broken.  But you should never discount the fact that alliances can be tested, twisted and tormented.  You should remember to value yourself.  You should remember to push aside other people and their drama, even the drama that they think they are hiding from you because you always get told what you never want to know.  When people wonder why you are silent, it is because you know so much about them that you're actually doing them all a favour.  If only people knew that you were protecting them.

Yeah, I bleed just like everyone
But I feed off a different one
I'm built all of broken bone
I am nothing to no one
Will your ghost stay here in the dark?
So close, while I fall apart
When you go, I will keep your heart
I am nothing to no one 
I am nothing, I am anothing
I am nothing to no one but you. . . 

I hope that you find places of solace that will heal you and take you away from situations that you didn't create.  Leave those ghosts behind in the dark.  There is no reason to stay there and wallow in things that you can't control and nor should you have to.  We lose sight of what is important in our own lives when we get dragged into situations that take up so much of our headspace and time, so much of our energy and love that we should be dedicating to ourselves.  This is especially the case when you don't have the right types of people in your life who offer you any solutions, but rather pile on and ply you with their problems.  Just because you're a troubleshooter rather than a troublemaker, it doesn't mean you should have to do it all the time aye?  Accept the gifts and talents that you have but remind those who choose to knock on your door that their behaviour will not go unnoticed.  They will no longer be allowed to make you feel like you are nothing to no one. . .