Sunday, 27 August 2017

Get up offa that thing. . .

I'm back, I'm back, I'm back. . . 

AAW! Oh! Say it now!
I'm back, I'm back, I'm back,
I'm back, I'm back!

I don't know if it's because I've managed to get some writing away to my supervisors - but I am in SUCH a better mood than I was over the past two weeks.  Life does that to you sometimes right?  It can knock you to the ground when situations compound themselves and once you get knocked down once, if you don't pick yourself back up, it is easy to roll around and wallow in your own self pity.  

Get up offa that thing
And dance till you feel better
Get up offa that thing
And dance till you sing now!
Get up offa that thing
And dance till you feel better
Get up offa that thing
And try to release that pressure

There is nothing worse than feeling like you're stuck in a rut.  How often do you let yourself get that way?  I don't know about you, but I think if you don't develop your own measures of resilience to help you get out of that, the longer you'll stay "on" that thing and not bother to get up offa it again.  Shaking things off until you feel better is definitely a good thing.  It's no accident that it's the go-to remedy for Meredith and her friends in Grey's Anatomy when they go through difficult times in their personal and professional lives.  Granted that it's a fictitious show, but the themes reflected there have resonance with us in our own spaces and contexts.

Get up offa that thing
And shake till you feel better
Get up offa that thing
And shake it, say it now!
Get up offa that thing
And dance till you feel better
Get up offa that thing
And try to release that pressure

Do you love learning new things about yourself?
As part of my own personal quest to be the best version of me that I can be, I have been learning how to feel better about bad situations a lot quicker.  If you were able to measure your own resilience, don't you think that would be a useful exercise for you to be able to do for yourself?  I think depending on the situation, you can choose how long to stay in a funk, or decide at all, whether it is a funk or not.  If we don't learn how to tell ourselves that we need to shake things off, we will never let go of the things that threaten to consume us, eat us from the inside out and let it permeate all of the other positive things that we have going in our lives.  How do you release all of the pressure that you are under?

Wait a minute!
So funky!
I need it!
That's a wiser brother
I know it sound good
Pretty darn good
Good God

It is important to reflect on yourself and be able to know where you are in your life.
Sounds airy fairy and corny right?  Wrong!  If you can't articulate where you are in terms of your own personal development - then you are not making conscious decisions that are truly informed by knowing who you are.  This means that you are actively waiting on others to tell you who you are, how you are meant to be and relying on their advice when you should listen to the answers and act on them.  How can we set about being wiser brothers?  Get woke.  Learn what you need to do in order to make an impact.  There's not enough time to be complacent anymore.  We must take action to bring our dreams into fruition.

Get up offa that thing
And dance till you feel better
Get up offa that thing
And dance till you sing now!
Get up offa that thing
And dance till you feel better
Get up offa that thing
And try to release that pressure

I hope that you learn how to deal with the pressure that people place on you.
It is important for our own health and wellbeing that we figure out what we can do to relax, to take a step back and know how to reassess a situation.  We need to stand up for what is critical for our own self worth, not to serve ourselves, but so we can be at our optimum, be at our best to give, to continue to give our best to others.  Find someone to dance with, shake off the pressure and blow off some steam with.  There is too much angst in the world, too many barriers that people put up that stops us from finding solutions that are meaningful and better for us.  I tell, once I stopped feeling sorry for myself, stopped making excuses, things started to happen.  So all you need to do is just get up offa that thing. . . 

Friday, 25 August 2017

Chicken soup in a song. . .

May you be cozy and warm, wherever you are. . . 

Lately you don't feel great
You got places to go people to see
People to see
So much business to get straight 
You're on planes and trains and buses
Bi-coastal, international
Yes, your lifestyle has its pluses
But some days it don't feel natural 

It is winter here in Aotearoa New Zealand, but it's technically meant to be the last week of winter.
Spring hits us between September to November, with Summer finally upon us from December to February.  I'm looking forward to Spring, but I am definitely feeling the winter from the weather we've been having - heavy rain, cold air, gale force winds - and that's only in the North Island.  The coldness though has come from people though in recent weeks.  I have been feeling it not for me personally, (well in some cases, but hey, such is life) but mostly from what I have been seeing between people and it's not ok.  So how do we deal with that?  When we reach that point of being so busy traveling back and forth, being constantly on the go and never having making the time to stop and get off those planes, trains and buses - or at least look at the window to enjoy the view every once in a while.

So I wrote you this 
Chicken soup in a song
May you be cozy and warm
Wherever you are
Chicken soup in a song
May you be cozy and warm
Wherever you are

I don't know about you, but I always appreciate it when someone takes the time to write something personal to you, whether it's a song, a poem, a letter or just a quick note or something personal in a messenger chat - just to reach out and let you know that they care about you, that they're there to listen to you whenever you need to.  If you have people like that in your life - keep them on speed dial on your phone.  We can never have enough people to be able to reach out to when we need.  The fastest road to feeling isolated and never recognising how important you are, is when you start to lose contact with people who value life because you're in it.

Not enough hours in a day
Enough days in a week
Weeks in a month
We will never get it all done
We're on phones, emails and faxes
Bi-coastal, yeah we're global
Yes this lifestyle has its pluses
But some days it don't feel natural

It can be easy to be annoyed with co-workers and friends when they aren't able to intuitively tap into how you are and read what you're about and why you're feeling a certain way on any given day.  Do you have that feeling when you think you've got things under control, you know exactly what needs to get cleared from your plate, but then people pop up and add extra crap to your plate?  I hate those people LOL. But in saying that, they rely on you because you can get things done, can push out maximum output with minimum input, as you go about things in your quiet little way.  When does it not feel natural?  Some days when your patience is tested having to listen to questions that are unnecessary, rhetorical questions that people put to you to show you how smart they think they are, when it does nothing for the situation.  What are the pluses of such a lifestyle?  Moving around from place to place and leaving it to people to get on with what they need to do - and then you get to check when you come back to see how they did without you.  Are you hell bent on getting it all done?

So I wrote you this 
Chicken soup in a song
May you be cozy and warm
Wherever you are
Chicken soup in a song
May you be cozy and warm
Wherever you are

I hope that in spite of everything you are going through right now, that you have the chance to be still and listen to yourself.  When someone is yelling at you and ripping you apart with all of their assumptions and judgement, you don't need to retaliate in kind.  Instead you can choose to let them exhaust themselves until they calm down enough to listen to what you have to say, calm down enough to listen to what they're actually mad about, calm down enough to learn how to reason and come to a consensus.  I think if you are able to practise and hone these skills, know how to help people to vent their frustrations, then, and only then can you get to some real solutions, achieve some resolutions.  If all else fails, just feel cozy and warm with this chicken soup in a song. . . 

Thursday, 24 August 2017

Didn't we almost have it all. . .

Loving you makes life worth living. . . 

Remember when we held on in the rain
The night we almost lost it
Once again we can take the night into tomorrow
Living on feelings
Touching you I feel it all again

What is it like to live on feelings?
I think we can have a kind of imbalance these days.  Too much of one thing isn't such a good thing and as obsessive as we are as humans, we can easily forget to have all things in moderation.  Have you met someone who has made you feel all kinds of feels, made you learn about yourself in ways that you never thought you had?  This particular track is Whitney Houston's fifth consecutive number one hit from her debut album.  I don't think her voice has ever rung as clear as it has in this particular song.  I pin it down to the sense of loss that prevails in this song.  I think we can so often be seduced by what love is meant to be, that we may let it pass us by because it doesn't come in a neatly tied package that can be easily undone.

Didn't we almost have it all
When love was all we had worth giving?
The ride with you was worth the fall my friend
Loving you makes worth living
Didn't we almost have it all
The nights we held on till the morning
You know you'll never love that way again
Didn't we almost have it all

I think at some time in our lives we will have someone who we have let slip away or things didn't work out, circumstances were just too difficult to really make a go of things, or you had to face reality and see that being apart made more sense than being together.  Have you ever been with someone where just being there for the ride was worth it?  That even though you knew that it had a shelf life, that the wild ride was eventually going to end, it was all worth it?  I'm a true believer in it is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.

The way you used to touch me was so fine
We kept our hearts together down the line
A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us
Help me bring the feeling back again

How many moments in the soul have you had?
Sometimes it doesn't take very many for you to feel like there are several forevers you could have.
What would it take for you to have your hearts together down the line?  Often we throw up excuses for being with someone because it's easier to say how hard it is.  No matter how fleeting the touch may be, you can never be sure if the touch will be repeated - and would you even want it to be?

Didn't we have the best of times
When love was young and new?
Couldn't we reach inside and find
The world of me and you?
We'll never lose it again
'Cause once you know what love is
You never let it end

I hope you remember what love was like.
Sometimes memories can be enough to sustain you through the lean years of no love.  I should know, I've been there.  But I think the longer you go without love, you become more discerning and more focused on other things, other ways that you can connect with people that don't require you to be so vulnerable, ways that you can just be yourself without having to compromise yourself, without having to break your promise to someone, back to those time when we knew, didn't we almost have it all. . . 

Monday, 21 August 2017

Should I be good or should I be evil. . .

Stand yourself in my shoes. . . 

I sit here in total darkness
Deep into the night
Should we stay together
And make it through alright

Relationships are difficult things to manage.  Partnerships, friendships, marriages, whatever form of commitment that they come in.  I've been listening to this song over and over in the past few days.  There's something about the original version of this song with just Hammond Gamble singing in it, that is so poignant.  The sentiments of the song reveal an inner struggle that we might face when we have to make decisions that will change the nature of that commitment that we promised to honour, that we promised to follow through indefinitely, most definitely.

Standing here in total silence
Far from where you breathe
Should we stay together
Or is it better if I leave

I started writing this blog post a few weeks ago, but didn't really have a chance to pump it out, as I've been under the pump in other areas of my life.  I wonder how many of us are far away from those who we are conscious of their breathing?  I think about how much love and care you have for someone, that you would be conscious of being in silence from such a far distance - that you would be quiet just so you can hear the thought of them breathing.  Who does that?  You might find yourself conscious of leaving or staying, trying to juggle which is the best option for you.

Should I be good or should I be evil?
I've gotta see the vision so the truth can be revealed
Should I be good or should I be evil?
Stand yourself in my shoes, tell me how you'd feel

Things are so black and white when they are good or evil.
We can try to explain our way out of situations, out of decisions made that cause pain and hurt to people around us.  We can try to justify why we did what we did, both consciously or unconsciously - whether they would even be subconsciously - who even knows the difference these days?  Deliberate intent and casual cause and effect.  We may never really know what our intentions are until we are faced with a situation that requires action or inaction.  Sometimes it's hard for people to know what you're going through because they can't stand themselves in your shoes.  They are so wrapped up in themselves that they can't see beyond to see what you're doing.  Or not doing.

Oh I have done right, but we all do wrong
You must see through all we can see
I guess my fate's been set, it's with deep regret
That I look back at how I used to be

Nobody is perfect.
If we were, we wouldn't have any problems that needed fixing, we wouldn't have any disasters that we needed to recover from.  Musically this section of the song is quite pretty.  The unusual combination of chords almost seem as if they are an attempt to try something different for the sake of deviation.  What does deep regret sound like to you?  It sounds poignant in this song.  It sounds like it's trying to tug itself at your heart strings to let you know that despite seeming to be strong - there is no real way of truly speaking without being offensive to another.  Have we made any progress about where we currently stand?  Have we learned enough to move on and truly change?  How did you used to be?  If you are different now, is it better or worse?  Did you change deliberately, randomly, or you had no choice in the matter?

Lying here in total darkness
I think my heart will break
As the teardrops fall
I wonder how much I can take

There is only so much a person is willing to take.
Even if people around you are totally aware of how much you have on in your life - they will still be in touch and want their pound of flesh as well.  That's ok.  Well, not really, but you understand that they have no other choice but to reach out to you.  There is too much that has happened, there is too much that has passed and no matter how much you try to move on and do things a little better, a little more profoundly, because the actions and decisions we made leading to those actions have a ripple effect that we never truly see.

Should I be good or should I be evil?
I've gotta see the vision so the truth can be revealed
Should I be good or should I be evil?
Stand yourself in my shoes, tell me how you'd feel

I hope that I find some happy medium soon - being equal parts fair and equal parts critical.
Sometimes we might not like the vision that we see, but if we want to live true authentic lives, they might not be the storybook endings that we have been lead to believe exist.  Should I be good for who?  Should I be evil for who?  Not everybody will win or benefit from whether you are good or evil.  I wonder what you would find if you stand yourself in my shoes.  I'm not sure if you would be able to tell me how you'd feel. . . 

Saturday, 19 August 2017

Ain't got far to go. . .

Close your eyes and take a step. . . 

Birds fly, we turned finally free
Patience lost, I began to lose me
My advice would be take a breath
Close your eyes and take a step

It's my late husband's birthday today.
I reminisced about the types of things we did to celebrate the occasion and I remembered how much he loved how I spoiled him on his special day.  When I lost him, I lost that part of myself that defined my connection to him.  Living without him has been a difficult journey, fraught with challenges where I crave listening to his advice for me when I had issues that he could solve or just hearing his thoughts about passions we both shared - particularly music and family.  I became impatient with grief when it first arrived at my doorstep and I didn't really know how to deal with it.  I wasn't expecting this situation to arrive so soon and I couldn't really talk to many people my age who had gone through a similar experience - I was the first to become a widow in my circle of friends.

I wasn't scared, I fought this on my own
You pulled me down and I let you go
I told you I would prove you wrong
And now I'm here and I'm standing strong

One of my friends asked me last night whether I still wrote blog posts, because she hadn't seen many from me this month.  August is always a particularly troublesome month because it is full of celebrations that I normally shared with my late husband - my birthday, our wedding anniversary and his birthday.  I must say that as the years go by, it does become less troublesome, but I never expect the ache to go away as people would have you believe that it will.  There have been moments when I have questioned why I have done things for others, in place of my late husband, and it has made me reflect on what I should be focusing on, standing strong on and relinquishing the grasps that reach out to me, when I do not want to be held.

I know (I know, I know)
I know (I know, I know)
I know (I know, I know)
That I ain't got far to go, go, go
'Cause I spent forever waiting
And it's no longer a dream
And now I've landed on my feet
And I ain't got far to go

Are there things in your life that only you can do?  That only you will be able to achieve?
I have a few of those things in my life at present and I have to harness my diligence and self discipline of my high school days to pursue my goals.  I sometimes think that if you are conditioned for success, often it can start to lose the appeal that it once had.  Not because you no longer enjoy being successful, but rather, that people expectations for your success can quickly turn from support to envy, even hatred.  It requires a lot of tenacity and perseverance to continue with postgraduate studies and you should seek all the available assistance.  I feel that after a significant period of turmoil, it is really good to be able to feel like the goals are becoming more tangible.  Have you landed on your feet too?

H-h-h-hold tight, rollercoaster, here we go
Florida, Orlando, I ain't playing with you
Day one, I said I'd go for me
One box ticked, got a lot to beat

Are you done playing games?
Listening to my friends and family in different situations of late, has lead me to believe that people play so many games in their lives.  I think to myself, why do we do that?  We can't be real and authentic anymore?  We just have to play our cards close to our chests and make sure people don't figure us out?  I'm not sure if I'm fed up with playing such games or I've actually learned to see the games coming, so extricate myself from being involved.  If you don't like certain rides, just don't get on them.  People will try and push you on, misconstrue what you are about - just know whether it's all worth it or not.

I'm here to stay, I'm here to stay
Amen (amen), amen (amen)
And if I had to go back in time
I would just do it again (again) again (again)

I believe that I don't have far to go to achieve my dreams, fulfil my goals.
There are people who don't think I can do what I have set out to do, but I don't need to focus on that.
Just focus on what needs to get done, prioritise the important things that do good for others in the long run, even if they can't see it right now.  Spend less time trying to justify why you're doing what you're doing, and believe in your destiny.  If things don't pan out as you'd planned - that's just more motivation to keep pushing and never give up.  So keep your eyes on the prize and stay confident in knowing that we ain't got far to go. . . 

Wednesday, 16 August 2017

Rise. . .

Now I'm ready to rise again. . . 

I know that it's over
But I can't believe that we're through
They said that time's a healer
And I'm better off without you
It's gonna take time I know
But I'll get over you

When you come out of a traumatic state, a significant phase in your life, you start to wonder how to regroup and how to make the most of what you've learned and gathered along the way.  It is important to remember to grieve for what has come to pass, what new learning you are becoming to accept.  When our beliefs are tested and we are starting to realise how much of what we are thinking and feeling has more to do with ourselves and less with others, then and only then, will we be able to make some improvement.  Changing how we see ourselves, changing our ways and morphing into who we want to be should be things that we keep at the forefront of our minds.  What are the things that you do, that help you to rise?

Look at my life, look at my heart
I have seen them fall apart
Now I'm ready to rise again
Look at my hopes, look at my dreams
I'm building bridges from the scenes 
Now I'm ready to rise again

When you experience setbacks, they are only reminders that let us know that we are meant to prepare for comebacks.  People go through life trying to dodge pain and experiences that they try to avoid.  You cannot only expect the good to come.  The bad is also there to help you build character and help you to realise your true priorities.  I laugh at myself sometimes when I think about how much time and energy I have wasted on things or people that didn't really need me.  But if you truly think about such situations, time is never wasted.  Otherwise how would you know your own worth?  How would you know that not everybody who needs you, deserves to have you?

Caught up in my thinking, yeah
Like a prisoner in my mind
You pose so many questions
But the truth was hard to find
I better think twice I know
That I'll get over you

If you are surrounded by people who love to make their problems, your problems, move on.
These types of people who like to create problems and drama because they know you can fix, doesn't mane that you should always go to their rescue.  How much accountability do we expect from people when we are in fact enabling them to continue to be this way?  To treat us in this manner?  The truth is only hard to find because you are either in denial or you've been lied to so many times that you don't know what the truth looks like anymore.  It's a very sad sad day when we have been lied to so much, that we can no longer discern the truth from the lies.  It's like telling people that the media is fake news when you're confronted with hard hitting facts, common sense and logic and still in denial about your own part that you played in lying to your voters.  There is nothing worse than being a prisoner in your own mind. I refuse to allow anyone to try and keep my thoughts locked up and bottled inside, threatening me to not be able to express what I am thinking and feeling.  If you know people like this in your life, either stop hanging out with them, or school them on who you are.

Much time has passed between us 
Do you still think of me at all?
My world of broken promises 
Now you won't catch me when I fall

I hope that you don't deal in regrets anymore.  That's something I'm learning day by day.
We shouldn't have to wonder if people still think of us at all.  You wouldn't even need to ask - you would know.  There will be people that you will give up on, because they never make the effort to engage with you.  There will be people that you will give up on, because they don't have the same understanding of what it means to be a friend to you.  We need to take responsibility for our own actions too. Nobody is perfect.  Sometimes it's just the way that we react to each other because we don't want to get hurt, that gets in the way of open and honest conversations.  Once pride, jealousy and envy rear their heads, it is difficult to really know how much you are willing to divulge, disclose and just plain lose.  Regardless of where things stand between me and any other person who either wishes me the best, or less, I will always take comfort in my determination to always rise again. . . 

Tuesday, 15 August 2017

You can find me. . .

To find your happy gotta lose control. . . . 

Thinking about those nursery rhyming days
When it was all fun and games 
Never had a care in the world
When did it all begin to change
Go back to the merry-go-round
Laughing and acting like clowns
Stay in this moment til'
We see the sun go down

Wasn't life simpler when you were a kid?
When we face things as adults, where we have to grow up and face facts. we find that we wish we were young again, so that we don't have to take responsibility.  Have you had those days?  Where we just pretend like we don't have to do anything that we don't want to, that we can just do what we like, when we want and with whom we want.  What moments are you keen on staying in?  We need to all remember that time is fleeting and that we make the most of the moments that we can create or let slip by.

I treasure your heart of gold
I'll be your shadow when you feel alone
'Cause nothing changes when I'm on the road
To find your happy gotta lose control

Are you fed up with people who only turn to you when they need help?
Real friends and loved ones will always reach out when you need them to.  It's one of the perks of being close to someone who knows you better than you seem to know yourself.  Sometimes if we allow somebody else's shadow to take over your light, then we are allowing ourselves to shine a little less.  Why would you do that?  Granted you can't expect people to try and find favour with you, especially if they don't really understand where you're coming from.  Why doesn't anything change when you're on the road?  Are you really that happy with what little happiness we have?  Either be happy or have control.  Sometimes we need to let go in order to gain/

If time between us gets a little uneven
Don't you worry 'cause you will find me here
Never broke a promise, never been dishonest
Don't you worry 'cause you will find me here
Oh oh you can find me, find me
You can find me, find me
You can find me, find me
You can find me, find me

Who do you make yourself available for?
Sometimes you might need to take a back seat and really take stock of who or what you need to spend time on.  It might be difficult to figure this out at first, but once you refocus and reassess your priorities, you realise how much is at stake for yourself.  It's always been easier said than done to think about yourself first, putting your needs, dreams and goals first - because nobody is able to achieve them, except for you.  I often wonder what I need to find sometimes - it's the self belief that eludes me that I need to hold onto, latch onto, and never let go.  All of the answers lie within me if I look hard enough and just push through.

Feeling like I've been misunderstood 
Like I heard she's gone to Hollywood
Couldn't be more wrong if you tried
Think you should take a hard look
It's not hard if you try
Try to see, through my eyes

As I leave Dunedin to return home to Auckland, from another work trip, I think about the reflections that educators have shared about their learning today.  I talked about Multiculturalism and how we need to exercise tolerance and love for each other.  How we must learn to value each other and respect human life, by embracing differences other than our own.  I can't but think about Charlottesville and how we can see each other, through each other's eyes.  How much are you willing to change about yourself in order to be more tolerant, accepting and more caring of others?  Sounds simple doesn't it?  But why is it so hard to achieve?

I guess unless you are willing to come to the party, to come to the table, and see how I see the world through my eyes, only then  will be able to , only then you can find me, find me. . . . 

Monday, 7 August 2017

Love my life. . .

I love my life. . . so I'll help you learn to love yours. . . 

Tether your soul to me
I will never let go completely
One day your hands will be
Strong enough to hold me

I turned 40 years old last Friday.
I spent the day doing things that I loved with people that I loved.
Granted not everybody that I wanted to spend the day with were available (either busy with unforeseen circumstances or they no longer walk this earth), and I don't want to take the day away from those who made a special concerted effort with me either.  Life happens sometimes and despite all the plans, sometimes things happen and not everything goes according to what we want, no matter how hard we plan.  For all of the unexpected turns of events throughout the day - I had a wonderful time with people who made the effort to leave their homes from around New Zealand and come and spend time with me.  The greatest gift you can give someone - is your time.  The best present is presence.  The best present is just being present.

I might not be there for all your battles
But you'll win them eventually
I'll pray that I'm giving you all that matters
So one day you'll say to me

There are some friends or family that you don't really see that much, but you know they will always be cheering for you in their own corner of the world.  These are the kind of people that you want to stay connected with.  These are my type of people.  I had a conversation with my mother about people.  She asked me why people aren't forthcoming like she is.  The question made me smile.  My mother has a tendency to wear her honesty like a crown.  She is unique like that.  She gives more information in a conversation than is required, and sometimes I worry about her.  Because I can see that people take advantage of her, because she loves to help as many people as possible.  Some people might say that I've inherited that from her, but I think I'm more discerning in being able to smell dishonest people from a mile away; those who seek to exploit me for their personal gain.  If we extricate ourselves from situations that people are hell bent on including us in, then maybe it needs to be said that we learn to distance ourselves from said people.

I love my life
I am powerful
I am beautiful
I am free
I love my life
I am wonderful
I am magical
I am me
I love my life

You should be able to go through life knowing how important you are.
When you are constantly being bombarded with negative statements that people throw at you, there is no obligation for you to wear it.  When things don't go your way, there is scope for you to understand that there are your ways of being that will completely mystify people.  That's ok too.  Not everybody is meant to know exactly who you are - just as long as you do, that's all that matters.  I think we should start focusing on the awesome things in our lives.  I have noticed that playing piano more often and creating more music gives me such a sense of joy and wonderment that I can't place anywhere else.  The magic I find within from playing songs and music that uplifts my soul - that's the kind of magic you need to experience daily for yourself.  I am more mindful of the little things that bring me joy, that bring me excitement and anticipation that can never be erased.  Create your own magical moments, rather than relying on someone else to create them for you.

I am not my mistakes
And God knows I've made a few
I started to question the angels
And the answer they gave was you

Don't you think if we were all our mistakes and wore them around our necks like garlands, that we probably wouldn't be able to hold our necks up?  The sheer weight of all the dumb, stupid and hurtful things that we've ever done would be worn everywhere we went, until we decided we were worthy enough of new beginnings and salvation to have the courage to remove it.  Do you have conversations with angels?  I have had my fair share of conversations with angels.  Most of the questions will probably never be answered until I'm no longer earth bound and then I can truly see things for myself.

I cannot promise there won't be sadness
I wish I could take it from you
But you'll find the courage to face the madness
And sing it because it's true

Have you come across people who try to take away sadness from you?
They mean well, have good intentions, but don't understand that sadness is a necessary part of life.
Without sadness we wouldn't know the difference between that and happiness.  We wouldn't know what rainbows look like after a rainy day and we wouldn't appreciate the warmth of the sun on our faces.  People have expected me to take their sadness away from them, but I can't.
It isn't my sadness to remove and they need to hold onto their sadness for a little bit, until they have learned all that they need to ensure they understand the place of sadness in their world.  It is something that we cannot ignore but something we must process.

Find the others
With hearts like yours
Run far, run free
I'm with you

Do you know where you can find people like you?
The only way we can do that is to truly talk to people and discover their inner light.
I anticipate there will be lots of opportunities for me to travel the world soon and I'm looking forward to it; a chance to learn more about myself, to run far, run free, and see where life takes me.  I don't know exactly when that's going to happen, but I will know once it does how I will feel and finally, I'm where I wanna be. . .