Monday, 17 July 2017

Let her go. . .

Hoping one day you'll make a dream last. . . 

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

There's that phrase you might have heard - you only miss your water when it's gone.
You may struggle internally to deal with issues that continue to plague you.  But I think if you are completely honest with yourself, you will see that either these issues are not yours in the first instance, or you have inadvertently exacerbated these issues in the attempt to help someone get through - but it's not your journey to make right?  Isn't this why they aren't capable of dealing with issues unless you are there to fix it for them?  Only when you are there to put all of the pieces back together and make them whole again, but in the process, making yourself empty and not doing what you need to do?  Who gives you energy when someone else depletes yours?  How much longer must you subject yourself to that?  You cannot possibly hope to sustain this.

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

I'm surrounded by people who do so much for others but don't realise they are being ridiculed behind their backs.  I know there are people that read my blogs religiously because they comment on how they have read them.  Sometimes I want to tell them what I know about what is actually going on in their lives, because I'm privy to information that would sooooo shift their perspective on how they are operating in their lives - but it isn't my place to say, it's not my journey to make.  One thing I have learned to do is to keep well enough away from situations that I don't need to be involved in.  One thing I will hint at though - is if you're someone who looks after other people's children on a regular basis, because you're kind hearted like that, and would do so at the drop of a hat, just think about how genuinely those mothers are about being your friend.  Because while you're being a good friend and being nice, they actually don't think much about you behind your back.  I only know this because other people have told me what has been said.  I must have that kind of face, or an invisible sign that says - tell me everything.


Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
Love comes slow and it goes fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

If you keep coming up against the same roadblocks - have a real serious think and reflect on why the same things keep happening.  I have been at a crossroads at a while, thinking about the goals that I have.  My destiny is intertwined with those of many, those who have not even been born yet, propelled by those who have gone before me.  Being part of a legacy is an important factor to remember and every action you do in the here and now has echoes that will reverberate into the future, much like how we can feel those of our ancestors in the breaths and steps we take now.  There are people we can never touch, never keep.  If you go too much too fast, they are always bound to slip through your fingers.  How then do you improve your grasp?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

I hope that you don't turn to people only when you need them.
This is the problem with society today.  We only call on people; run to them when we have problems that we can't solve, but we forget to realise that we are the ones who created those problems in the first place.  If you're like me, you would have tried to push past the problems to find solutions for these people, but when is enough, enough?  There are limits that people need to be aware of, that sometimes you won't be there for all of the time at their every beck and call, especially when your faith in them starts to erode, when they have continually abused you, again and again.  Those are the times that you realise that you just need to let her go. . .