Tuesday, 28 February 2017

City of stars. . .

Knowing you have once been under the same city of stars. . . 

City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars
There's just so much that I can't see
Who knows?
I felt it from the first embrace I shared with you
That now our dreams
They've finally come true

You would like to think that when you look up at the night sky that the stars shine for you, even with your troubles and struggles, whatever you seem to be going through in your times of darkness, all of that disappears, when you are under a city of stars.  I have been talking to lots of people lately about the unknown and what it means to be able to move forward, even when things don't seem so certain.  That instead, we just need to be willing to take risks and learn to back ourselves and believe in who we are, what we are capable of doing, even when the world doesn't think we can do anything worthwhile.  You might come across someone who reminds you about this in your life and suddenly you find the corners of your mouth start to pick up and you're able to turn your frown upside down.  Thinking about positive things, about people who matter to you, they'll have that effect on you when you least expect it.

City of stars
Just one thing that everybody wants
There in the bars
And through the smokescreen of the crowded restaurants
It's love
Yes, all we're looking for is love from someone else
A rush
A glance
A touch 
A dance

I'm not writing about this song because of what happened at the Oscars the other night.  No.  As a pianist, I was always drawn to this song in the movie.  Something about the combination of lyrics and the feel of the song, where it changes in all the right places, plays all of the right motifs in all the right spaces, speeds up and slows down exactly where it needs to.  I really enjoy listening to such pieces of music on repeat, long enough so that I let the piano sound ring in my ears, or surround the space that I occupy.  Are you looking for love from someone else?  I'm not sure if ever really find someone when we're looking.  As cheesy as these films may seem, we really do meet people when we least expect.  Think about it.  That person in your life you currently see as a pain in the ass or about to completely write off, they might just turn out to be exactly who you want them to be, who they want you to want them to be.  Who knows when anybody is ever really ready for love, right?

A look in somebody's eyes
To light up the skies
To open the world and send it reeling
A voice that says, I'll be here
And you'll be alright

There's nothing more important than reassurance sometimes.
Often we feel that we need to hear it often.  More often than not, we just need to rely on the self assurance that we carry with us.  By relying on someone to reassure us all the time, how will we ever learn when we can be sure of ourselves?  Don't get me wrong.  It's great to be able to take that look in somebody's eyes when they look at you and use that to light up your dark night skies.  We might even enjoy the chaos that brings, that the look in those eyes does to open our world and send it reeling.  But what cost does it come with us?  Who pays that price?

I don't care if I know
Just where I will go
'Cause all I need is this crazy feeling
A rat-tat-tat on my heart

We might find ourselves in the other extreme, following that path that everybody else expects you to travel down and never really rely on anything that our heart has to tell us.  We become afraid to feel, to know that life is meant to be full of foolhardy mistakes, risks that were meant to be taken and fully taken advantage of, even when it causes our heart to be broken into so many pieces, that when we go to piece it all back together, it hardly resembles anything that would have come from your body.  How are you with this crazy feeling?  Are you able to cope with it?  Somehow I can't help but think that sometimes it's like trying to be a rodeo cowboy, trying to wrangle that steer in the hopes that by holding on for dear life, you'll actually survive this crazy feeling.

City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars
You never shined so brightly. . . 

I hope that you know that underneath the city of stars that you're in, you can shine just as bright as those stars.  You should remember that no matter what life throws at you, curveballs, hospital passes, line outs, something in the outfield, that you have the stamina to run after that ball, retrieve it and throw it straight it back.  Even if you can't shine brightly enough for yourself, I hope you find someone who does shine brightly so you can see what it looks like to shine bright.  As much as we might think that it's time to be away from those stars, it's also good to revel in the light and know that it's ok to think I want it to stay. . .