Wednesday, 10 August 2016

Wicked game . . .

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

Do you sometimes get sick of saving people?  You might be inclined to save someone all the time, because that becomes your function in their life.  They will come to rely on you for everything.  What desires do they have that make them do foolish things that require to bail them out every time they fall?  When all dreamers do is dream and give little regard to what their dreams do for you (as the dreams may ironically not even feature you), it might not even be their fault.  Maybe they're just built to be that way, just as you're built to be the strong one.  I guess people will assume things about you, unless something happens beyond anyone's control and the reality kicks in, bringing with it truth that you can't deal with or can't face without admitting more truths that expose your true feelings.

No, I don't want to fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
No, I don't want to fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
With you, with you (this girl is only gonna break your heart)

There is a danger in falling for someone in case you get hurt.  How many times have you come across people like that?  Would you go through life protecting your heart so nobody can break it?  It's hard to say that life has no guarantees of anything, because you don't want to believe that.  Everyone wants reassurances that if they play their cards right, that they come out unscathed, unharmed, untouchable.  But that's the point of falling in love right?  There are risks involved, there are chances to be taken and you can't control how the situation will play out, other than what you are prepared to put in or take away.


What a wicked game you play to make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you

Have you ever strung anybody along in this way?  Have you ever been the one to suffer in this way?  The fact that you don't understand what has happened until it's too late is a complete understatement.  There is a sense of established trust where you can give yourself over and hope that you are treated with respect; but of course you get weary.  You start to get paranoid and think about whether you stumble along quite gingerly, unwilling to let people think that you have been traumatised by love, refusing to be lead by the heart, by someone caring deeply for you. So how do you reconcile your feelings about this?  Can something be done?  Are you quite content to suffer in silence?  We play these wicked games because we focus on the wrong things in love - power, control and pride.  When those things become the foci or foundation for love - everybody loses, no winner takes it all.

And I wanna fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
No, I wanna fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart with you)

So ultimately there are decisions to be made.  They will be tough ones.  So we need to think very carefully about which direction we are going to take - do we want to fall in love, or do we not?  The fear of having your heart broken is a very real fear, especially if someone has already played a wicked game with you in previous relationships or connections.  We want to be able to believe that we can trust another person to not break our hearts.  If they have a proven track record of loving others with equal parts passion and care, then what fear would you have of them breaking your heart?  It never crosses our minds until it happens, until the disconnection becomes more apparent and the train wreck unfolds and appears imminent.

This world was on fire and no one could save me but you
It's strange but desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you 

I hope that you know yourself a bit more, having learned from previous relationships or connections.  We often think that we have mastered our feelings and we absolutely know how we are going to be with others in intimate situations.  In actual fact, we don't know, because we tend to think with our heads rather than our hearts.  Sometimes the desires that we have don't spring from our hearts but from other places that need instant gratification or release.  Those things come to pass and all you will be left with are memories.  We never dream of meeting somebody that we never forget, and we never dream of losing somebody that we never forget.  I guess this is what they mean when they say nobody loves no one. . .