Sometimes I feel . . . like I don't belong anywhere
And it's gonna take. . . so long for me to get somewhere
I think as a young woman (not that I'm an old woman now, just older than I was I guess), I was in such a hurry to grow up and do things that I thought was cool about being older. But now that I'm in that space, I'm telling students to just ease up, enjoy your youth because like the blink of an eye - it disappears as quickly as it arrived. I feel like saying, why are you in such a rush to die? I understand that going out and doing stuff with a sense of urgency is so that you make the most of living - but sometimes, all living really is, just involves quiet time spent alone, meditating and being lost in your own thoughts.
Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted . . . but I can't explain cuz I'm so guarded
But that's a lonely road to travel, and a heavy load to . . . bear
I had a great conversations with my father today. I told him about my aspirations for him and my mother. I told them that even though things may seem like I have a heavy load to bear in my life, but I told them that I don't think about it in that way. Granted, yes, life could be easier, but I'm a huge fan of the fact that nothing ever happens to me that wasn't meant to - especially the stuff that stresses me out, overwhelms me or makes me second-guess myself and my abilities. I don't know how to describe it, but I'm filled with such an immense sense of gratitude, that I can't measure it. In spite of it all - I am happy. Mostly the fact that I'm happy with myself, with the me that I am today. I understand that in some instances that I need to be guarded - but who doesn't? I don't like to rely on other people for protection, but I know when to ask for shelter from a storm when I need it.
And it's a long, long way to heaven but I gotta get there
Can you send me an angel?
Can you send me an angel. . . to guide me. . .
I am extremely grateful for the angels that have come and gone in my life.
I know the ones who have left early so that they can be of use in heaven, because they fulfilled their duties in this earth bound realm. Which makes me think - how many more angels will come my way? I know that heaven for everyone looks different - there are different things that we think is heaven to us. All I know is that, when you see fit to do so, if you feel like you can spare a couple more from time to time, can you send me an angel. . .