Wednesday, 25 May 2016

I need you. . .

I guess after you have experienced something traumatic, something that completely drains you, particularly when you are affected by something that has forced you to confront feelings that you haven't felt before or don't recognise - it can all seem a little too much.  But the thing that you might start to feel is when you need someone.  There is that totally natural human desire to need someone in your life - someone who can be there for you and comfort you, support you, just be there.  

We used to laugh, we used to cry
We used to bow our heads then wonder why?
Now you're gone I guess I'll carry on
And make the best of what you've left to me
Left to me, left to me

I have always been interested and super attuned to people.  I have always been a good listener and try to give people the benefit of the doubt, but this totally depends of course on how they treat others, rather than their own expectations of treatment by others.  It is extremely important to keep hold of the essential people in your life who help you to be better, who help you to be better for yourself as well as to be better for others.  We can often doubt ourselves so much to the point that we rely too much on others for self worth and reassurance that we are on the right track.  If you were to do a stocktake on your life - closely examining all of the people that you choose to surround yourself with, would you still keep on the shelf or discard some of them, replace them with more high quality stock that would be more valuable to your customers. guaranteed to keep people coming back for more?  

I need you like the flower needs the rain
You know I need you 
Guess I'll start it all again
You know I need you
Like the winter needs the spring
You know I need you, I need you

How badly do you need people?  Are there times where you are quite content to just do your own thing and not be in contact with anybody?  How do you let people know that you need them?  Do you tell them or do you show them?  There is a sense of vulnerability that needs to be shared or at least understood between people, I mean that's how you know things are "real" as opposed to not.  Have you ever laid you soul bare to someone and let them know how much you need them?  It can be an overwhelming thing to see someone in such a state of vulnerability, and in the times when someone has shared their weaknesses and opened up to me in ways I didn't see coming, it is very humbling.  I know of people who have shared secrets with others and then it becomes exposed - obviously they trusted the wrong people.  

An' every day I'd laugh the hours away
Just knowin' that you were thinkin' of me
Then it came that I was put to blame
For every story told about me
About me, about me

Thoughts are much more powerful than people really understand. We can tend to not pay attention to the thoughts swimming around in our head and we don't acknowledge how our thoughts can intersect with our feelings, because we don't expect them to.  If you have people that think of you, it's usually a testament to the fact that they value you, making them feel good themselves and who they are must be a talent or skill that you possess.  Just as there may be "fans" in your life, you might also experience an equal amount, if not more, of some "haters", or people that can't wait to see you fail and make you second guess all of the good work that you do.  What are the stories that are told about you?  I have always maintained that it doesn't matter what the stories are about you - particularly if they aren't true, why the need to defend yourself?  There is always a way for the truth to shine through and your true character reflected.

Like the winter needs the spring
You know I need you
Guess I'll start it all again
You know I need you
I need you, I need you. . . 

If someone needs you, I hope that you consider that you share pieces of yourself that will help them.  Just be careful that you don't lose yourself in their drama and make you question helping other people who may really need you.  Relying on my intuition much more these days, I can safely say that I can sense with much more conviction who I choose to share myself with, because I know that the people who need me, know that I know that they need me, and that's alright with me.  It's what they want me, but don't need me, that's when the connection will come to its natural conclusion.