Tuesday, 15 December 2015

Closer to fine. . .

This blog post is dedicated to people searching for answers and need to trust their questions :-)

I'm trying to tell you something about my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
The best thing you've ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously, it's only life after all
Well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
And lightness has a call that's hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it, I'm crawling on your shore

If you let it, life can quickly get on top of you and you start to lose sight of what's important in your life.  You start to take life a little too seriously, especially if you live in the corporate world and you are meant to be this professional who doesn't have any problems whatsoever and your work ethic speaks volumes about the character that you have and what people perceive about you.

I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains

I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine

Where do you go to find solace in difficult times?  Where do you go to for comfort?  Where do you to go to be refreshed, renewed and re-energised?  Sometimes you won't even need to go to an external source but actually just reflect on yourself by taking a long hard look in the mirror.  I honestly believe that the answers you seek the most about yourself will lie within your very being, but some people just need the right support to help draw this from their internal source to the world.  Call it Pollyanna Syndrome but I can often see the good in others, even when the rest of the room is willing to throw them under a bus.  I don't know where this comes from for me, whether I learned to adopt this stance or not, but I think I'm just a supporter of the underdog (naturally by my own nature) but I enjoy being able to help others champion causes that will make the most impact in other people's lives - and this is for the most part, having people take that look at themselves.

I went to see the doctor of philosophy
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knee
He never did marry or see a B-grade movie
He graded a performance, he said he could through me
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind, got my paper
And I was free

I find myself jumping through so many hoops and I totally understand that the world is built this way because believe it or not, we are constantly being measured on what we know, where we know this knowledge from and where we intend to spread this knowledge.  Having people see through you will be a useful exercise for you to

I stopped by the bar at 3am
To seek solace in a bottle or possibly a friend
I woke up with a headache like my head against a board
Twice as cloudy as I'd been the night before
I went in seeking clarity

I think we have our greatest learnings about ourselves when we actually don't force ourselves but rather let the process happen.  Too often we can be fixated on who controls this process, particularly if we worry too much about other people trying to control our lives.  I don't really feel bothered about this at times as society is structured in a way where we have obligations and duties to carry out as part of how we might have chosen (or not) to participate in the corners of our world.  Seeking solace by abusing substances and with friends with good intentions may only be temporary solutions to long term problems that you haven't addressed in your own time.

We go to the bible, we go through the workout

We read up on revival and we stand up for the lookout
There's more than one answer to these questions
pointing me in a crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine
The closer I am to fine. . . 

I hope that you are able to make sense of your own thinking and know what you need, either tools or human resources to answer those questions in your crooked line.  I hope that you realise that as much as we try to search for answers, they will only be temporary solutions until you form new questions in your mind to guide you to new environments and surroundings where you need to be.  I think only once you've come to that plateau, you will have entered the valley of acceptance, where you will start to finally believe, the closer I am to fine. . .